I’m feeling optimistic and committed. Just started another challenge (last one was fall 2015 and I didn’t finish due to
life stuff excuses). This one lasts 56 days through the gym I attend and there are about 100+ people doing it together.
In the day and age of opinions – and because I am an OVERthinker and OVERsharer – and because I am surrounded by women (including 3 daughters) who struggle with food and weight and fat shaming and exercise shaming and body acceptance and body image – I feel a responsibility to be clear and transparent with my health and wellness journey.
It’s difficult to be someone who struggles with body image and weight and feeling ashamed or pressured to be a certain way. And it can be difficult to make peace with who you are as you are. Self-acceptance is a good goal. And it can be difficult to find your way – who am I, how do I want to be, how do I want to live?
Many women never figure it out. Many of us give up trying. Many of us reach peace in our 40s, but many more get there in their 50s, 60s, and even 70s. Our journey, our experiences and our stories are as individual as we are.
Given the experiences and stories of my sisters (all the women I know and love) I am self-conscious of my desires and goals. I am aware that I am a bit of an anomaly in my desire to set fitness goals, eat with purpose and get strong. And there are times I feel ashamed of the drive for these goals. After all, so many women I love appear to struggle with their health, body acceptance and happiness… I often feel guilty for my happiness.
So begins another Challenge. Ketogenic eating will drive the first weeks of the challenge and then the re-introduction of strategic carbs. It’s about fuel quality and treating your body like a treasured performance tool. Maybe not for EVERYONE, but for me, it’s about LOVING myself enough to treat myself, with what I consider to be, excellence. It’s just my perspective.
I am a goal setter. I journal gratitude and prayers and love and dreams and plan for what I’m going to do and see and reach for. I enjoy it. It makes me feel good. Some could argue I am obsessed – or addicted. They don’t understand the desire to push – to aim – to reach.
I’ve been obsessed when it made me sick and addicted when it endangered my life.
Last time, I didn’t finish the challenge.
Something feels different this time.
The Goals: my April 29, 2016 Body Analysis scan revealed a current total body fat mass of 26% – 4% is only about 6 pounds (by my calculations).
The 16kg Snatch is a fitness and strength measurement test based on my age, height and weight through StrongFirst.
And the lean muscle increase keeps metabolism high and protects bone density – seeing as how I also don’t believe that I need calcium … 🙂